4th May 2010
Well, finally done it – put all my maternity stuff on Ebay. In a way it helped me, as long as they are still under our roof, they’ll be a constant “what if?”
Went upstairs and took photos of everything and came across a t-shirt I loved when I was pregnant. Got it at Next Clearance, it is a pale blue/green with “Baby Face” on the front. Took off my shirt and pulled it on – it felt so nice, so I kept it on. Unfortunately it just looked a wee bit baggy! Also found my lush M&S maternity jammies, a three piece set that cost £50, black with cream lace – no way they’re going on Ebay, only wore them a handful of times!
Anyway DH stuck his head round the bedroom and asked if I was alright, told him I was fine, was glad to be rid of everything, stuck most of it on at 99p start bids just to get it away. It was only once I was back downstairs I realised why he was so concerned; I was still wearing my “Baby Face” t-shirt!
While CJ was in the bath I sat on the loo and took in the waistband of my fancy pj’s!
Had a check on my items and someone has already bid on my bump bands and some Inch Blue shoes I had bought for CJ but never wore on him.
So I am sitting here writing this in jammies I can pull up under my bust, remembering how I felt like a proper yummy mummy in the maternity ward, and how wonderful it was to hold my precious bundle wrapped in his soft blue blanket against my chest. But, I’m ok, I lived the dream that I thought would never come true, and I continue to live it every day with CJ and my DH. It’s ok if we never have another, at one point we thought we would never have any.
Well, finally done it – put all my maternity stuff on Ebay. In a way it helped me, as long as they are still under our roof, they’ll be a constant “what if?”
Went upstairs and took photos of everything and came across a t-shirt I loved when I was pregnant. Got it at Next Clearance, it is a pale blue/green with “Baby Face” on the front. Took off my shirt and pulled it on – it felt so nice, so I kept it on. Unfortunately it just looked a wee bit baggy! Also found my lush M&S maternity jammies, a three piece set that cost £50, black with cream lace – no way they’re going on Ebay, only wore them a handful of times!
Anyway DH stuck his head round the bedroom and asked if I was alright, told him I was fine, was glad to be rid of everything, stuck most of it on at 99p start bids just to get it away. It was only once I was back downstairs I realised why he was so concerned; I was still wearing my “Baby Face” t-shirt!
While CJ was in the bath I sat on the loo and took in the waistband of my fancy pj’s!
Had a check on my items and someone has already bid on my bump bands and some Inch Blue shoes I had bought for CJ but never wore on him.
So I am sitting here writing this in jammies I can pull up under my bust, remembering how I felt like a proper yummy mummy in the maternity ward, and how wonderful it was to hold my precious bundle wrapped in his soft blue blanket against my chest. But, I’m ok, I lived the dream that I thought would never come true, and I continue to live it every day with CJ and my DH. It’s ok if we never have another, at one point we thought we would never have any.
posted by Tony's missus at 9:20 pm
1 Comments:
You have had an awful time, and in light of that, you took a really big step today. On the one hand it's positive to take action that says you aren't holding on to expectations. On the other hand, it's good to know that you haven't given up hope and that you are appreciative of what you have.
I hope that you get loads of money from Ebay and spend it on something fun. What happens next is an unknown, but it's good to start the next period with joy and laughter. I wish you the very best with your family.
Lisa
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